6/20-21/2026

By m April (She’s Bipolar) Lol

Unconditional Love , 💕 . Yes , Maybe …sometimes

Take that med or we’ll be 500 miles away ? Go ahead , stay away . Do you even know what you are saying ,what is even in that pill 💊 bottle fool ?! You do the math , yo! I’ll be better off that stuff OK so imagine you’re depressed or whatever and then all of a sudden you take a medication that gives you all of these side effects in addition to be depressed wouldn’t you rather just be depressed depressed you gotta risk all this below seriously you take the medication. It hurts your stomach next you got facial muscle uncontrollable twitching, and you get to look forward to the older that you get the more risk of a chance you have of getting dementia those patients get to have increased the risk of death so is it can give you risk of death any damn moron the things that I would be dumb enough to get any of my family members that I love that stuff just because it comes in a bottle and they sell it for $3000three grand for 90 freaking pills do you know that you can get a hyper cow that much a cow that can give you 50,000 gallons of milk oh my God are you serious let it be that medicine people have lost their mind and gone you’re depressed?

Go for a walk. 

Meditate

Journal

Practice yoga

Read a good self-help book

Read the Bible

Art music therapy

Animal therapy

Holistic health and nutrition

Amino acid supplementation

Antioxidants

Drink lots of water

Exercise exercises that increases positive endorphins in your brain.

Talk to someone about your feelings it’s called psychotherapy, try it.

Emotional support animals.

Read the Bible, pray , be thankful.

Practice a gratitude journal

Do something positive for other people if you feel so inclined.

Get plenty of sleep, take a nap.

Relax

Acupressure

Acupuncture )if you’re not scared of needles)

Holistic massage therapy Swedish massage therapy

Hydrotherapy take a nice bath

Aromatherapy

Or

Lastly ….

you can try taking a medication that has all of these side effects so that you can be depressed plus all of this below: you might not want to take it…

Would you like a dose of ….

Dystonia

Side Effect

Symptoms of dystonia, prolonged abnormal contractions of muscle groups, may occur in susceptible individuals during the first few days of treatment. Dystonic symptoms include: spasm of the neck muscles, sometimes progressing to tightness of the throat, swallowing difficulty, difficulty breathing, and/or protrusion of the tongue. While these symptoms can occur at low doses, they occur more frequently and with greater severity with high potency and at higher doses of first generation antipsychotic drugs. An elevated risk of acute dystonia is observed in males and younger age groups.

Other Adverse Reactions Observed During Premarketing Evaluation Of INVEGA®

The following additional adverse reactions occurred in < 2% of INVEGA®-treated subjects in the above schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder clinical trial datasets. The following also includes additional adverse reactions reported at any frequency by INVEGA®-treated subjects who participated in other clinical studies.

Cardiac disorders: bradycardia, palpitations

Eye disorders: eye movement disorder

Gastrointestinal disorders: flatulence

General disorders: edema

Immune system disorders: anaphylactic reaction

Infections and infestations: urinary tract infection

Investigations: alanine aminotransferase increased, aspartate aminotransferase increased

Musculoskeletal and connective tissue disorders: arthralgia, pain in extremity

Nervous system disorders: opisthotonus

Psychiatric disorders: agitation, insomnia, nightmare

Reproductive system and breast disorders:breast discomfort, menstruation irregular, retrograde ejaculation

Respiratory, thoracic and mediastinal disorders: nasal congestion

Skin and subcutaneous tissue disorders:pruritus, rash

Vascular disorders: hypertension

Precautions for Invega

Increased Mortality In Elderly Patients With Dementia-Related Psychosis

Elderly patients with dementia-related psychosis treated with antipsychotic drugs are at an increased risk of death. INVEGA® (paliperidone) is not approved for the treatment of dementia-related psychosis;

Imagine what it would do to someone without dementia like a younger person for example myself in my 40s do you think that taking a medication that causes side effects is actually gonna help if eventually you’re gonna get older than don’t you think your medication that you’re taking that dementia tea patients are taking that they would take when they are older to help them but then this medication says it will not help people so why should younger people take it as my reasons bad for older it should be bad for younger. It’s universal really?

So if an ultimatum is given by a parent when their daughter didn’t take medication for 35 years of their life and treated naturally with other alternative things like yoga, meditation nutritional supplementing going for walks and nature, hydrotherapy reflexology, acupuncture, acupuncture, outdoor recreation equine therapy is also even an option with emotional support animal, art therapy ,,music…

What about the spiritual competent of being a human being when people judge you for being bipolar and one of your parents or both of your parents think that you have to take a chemical pill then what about the side effects of their long-term effects because short term effects are one thing that long-term is another so what is one year plus another and then another oh it’s just like tardive ~? dyskinesia you can get that. Did you know that?

Now I know my parents love me both of them and I love them too, and my stepdad and my mom are married, but they haven’t lived with me and my bipolar disorder. They don’t know it. It’s like for me to treat my own depression. Naturally I’ve only been in the hospital since being diagnosed with bipolar depression, but I was 14 years old at three times and it’s been 10 decades. It’s been three decades apart each time that I was in the hospital. There’s a 10 to 11 year age apart so that’s not bad because some people can’t live without medication and that have a disability like a so-called “mental illness” but I actually managed to manage my bipolar depression naturally with having something a little bit different in my life I had

1) loving grandparents that were Christians that taught me about Jesus so there was a spiritual aspect of things so sometimes people think you have to take medication but what about spirituality like the Native Americans my Grandad’s part turkey so you have spirit medicine or earth medicine or there’s different kinds it’s so-called medicine but don’t always put all of your eggs and basket people say sometimes, but my mom said that one time, which is great for Easter with my name being April, but I do love my parents, but they just didn’t understand that I have to treat my depression the way that I feel is good for me without medication being too many side effects, though if I start to experience them, then I need to be honest with my family about it and they should be flexible with me since I went from the age of 15–35 years old without taking any meds and if you understood the conditions upon which I began taking them, it was the result of being framed for something that my dad sister was guilty of doing. She admitted that they framed me and then I was in a hospital for 4.5 months at the age of 34 years old before my 30th fifth birthday and it was when I was in school for massage therapy. I’d already graduated as a Swedish massage therapist. I was working at a spa and Claire’s Boutique at the mall and at an Indian restaurant while working full-time actually I worked about 35 hours a week and I did schooling full-time and I had a minivan. I used to drive to the mountains to see my mom her family there and so I would spend most of my time helping my cousin Kristy with her animals. We had three dogs. I had a pitbull puppy and then I would go to the church sometimes and sort of volunteering my free time on the weekends and then on well it’s really on Wednesday night Awana program

 –Psychotherapy /

so say good therapy is one thing that was helpful when I was growing up psychotherapy, which was good to talk to a counseling psychologist. They always recommend that so that’s why I was able to manage during the age of 15 to 18 without taking medication for bipolar depression.

Then I started holistic therapy– at 17 to 18-years old , with my help from my grandparents I started having counseling psychotherapy and then I started doing yoga because my grandmother got me a DVD and that helped my bipolar depression

Music therapy~ cello lessons, guitar, practicing singing being in the choir with my Grandad playing musical instruments on my own being expressive with music always help me with my bipolar depression

Going outside Exercise ~

Getting outside going jogging 4 miles a day I used to being out in nature going for walks if possible if you can’t go for a long walk and just try to have a small fitness routine that can help you release positive endorphins, which are good for your longevity and for your brain, releasing serotonin and dopamine which are natural chemicals that can help you with bipolar depression , or any depression. Getting fresh air and being outside doing something fun I used to like to play field hockey and softball that skateboarding used to be a fun hobby of mine so I think it’s good to find something you like to do. I enjoyed playing tennis with my aunt one time and then learning how to kayak was nice but then having some form of physical exercise even just walking can be a form of meditation.

Meditation is the next that’s what really helped me on my spiritual I’m a spiritual path. I was meditate when I was about between the ages of 17 to 20 I be in meditation practice and I learned the Merkaba, which is an Egyptian and a Hebrew kind of Egyptian mystery school and then Hebrew like Cappa it’s like Jewish mysticism but at the same time it’s still compatible with Christianity cause it’s not black magic. I’m not like worshiping and false. I’m not doing witchcraft or wicked spells. I don’t believe in those things, but my meditation would be based on sacred geometry or just clearing my mind, but I would actually do it like at least 15 minutes a day and that’s how I was able to be resilient from PTSD.

Emotional Support Therapy Dog

So with these different kinds of therapies are also animal therapy really helped me ESA emotional support animals and then I didn’t really have technically a Service dog, but I kind of did with a pitbull because he was very intuitive to my bipolar depression when I was living in Virginia with my dad and he was a smoker. I’d help me to go outside and be with the dog and go for a walk with my puppy and help my cousin sit down. Read my Bible.

OK, spirituality is a kind of medicine that you don’t have to take a bottle but if you go to church then you’ll get 700 mg or 777 mg or 144 mg of Jesus loves you !

So the power of positive thinking, but even the Bible tells us to meditate to think clearly so spirituality is also a kind of matter but when people think about mind, body and spirit, you have a mental illness so what about people that has spiritual illnesses because they don’t allow Christ to wash their their heart and their solar their spirit they’re focusing on things that are not good like the opposite, which would be like horror, movies, or bad things that they become addicted to, and they shouldn’t like pornography which I mentioned the black hole then because that’s like going into pornography and satanic worship and becoming to Gothic for too long and forgetting that Jesus did love you and Mary didn’t wear black lipstick and black nail polish and black combat boots and black attire. She was the mother of Jesus but then modest look at what the Israelites are wearing like different colors. There’s nothing wrong with being Gothic and being minimal and wanting to wear black sometimes but when people start rebelling against God and then they get depressed and then they really like get into Dad dark visual imagery with I’ve seen you know people going through their Gothic phase, and I’ve worked in a Gothic nightclub before when I lived in Philadelphia it was crazy. I was a Christian and people would come in there and do all kinds of crazy stuff while I was serving bottled water and twizzler candies during the event. But I always enjoyed it when the MTV Offspring come in offspring ( the kids are not alright ) that album was like when I grew up as a Gen X just trying to understand you. Yeah, sometimes it helps to have a spiritual path in life and that can be complementary to your mental health so that’s not something that your psychiatrist can give you or that you can get 777 mg of Jesus please keep the demons away from me or please keep the bad men that rape innocent girls away for me or please keep the Satan worshipers away from me in a bottle. You have to get that in yourself and you need to go to God to do that or get the wisdom that comes from the Bible or wisdom. It comes from good people if you don’t have religion than me, kindness, religion, but sometimes you have to be fiercer formidable like if you know it’s best for yourself you can’t let somebody else pull your tail if you’re a tiger and just like a tiger isn’t gonna let you pull its tail it’s gonna eventually bite so sometimes you just need to tell your parents what’s best for yourself when they insist that you take a medication it’s like wait a minute I didn’t take medication for 35 years so while all of a sudden in the past 10 years, was it mandatory ? It wasn’t , was the answer.

It was optional.

When I went to the doctor when I was 35 and I began taking a medication it’s because I agreed to cause my dad gave me an old to me that he said either you can come live at my house and take medication or not and I said well, he didn’t even quit smoking and he was having substance to be his problems taking medication and I wasn’t taking any medication and I was getting a 2.7 GPA and working three different jobs while doing my college courses online when two people and another person framed me three people in my family that that I had gave her I forgive her, but she told me that even my father did because he was mentally ill and he was greedy. He just wanted to rent out my room to someone else that could rent more money from him, renting his room out to people so I ended up being hurt by him physiologically and put in a hospital and my doctors didn’t know I was there and they were like well. You’re doing good without medication with me bipolar depression just managing with holistic, yoga and psychotherapy or basically counseling and so I was like well. I’ll go ahead and agreed to take a medication if it’ll make my parents feel better”

But I’ve gotta feel better. I’ve got to be the one that allows my spirit to have an upgrade with Jesus Christ or with my meditation practice on my spiritual life with animals and being thankful for the kingdom that God gave us here instead of going into the black hole • black hole medication there’s like bad men in the 1940s cold world, Cold War world, mind control tactics and their patience. You can see that with the Bridgerton show like what happened to King George KG when he was beautiful and he had. unfortunately, they had doctors that weren’t very nice to him and he was a very smart young man the king and that series so it’s just an example of sometimes psychiatric care gone wrong. The lady the mother caught it “treatment” they used to perform lobotomies on people which is cutting off half of their brain. How is that? Supposed to help your mental health get better , honestly! So we are all naturally perfectly. We have left and right hemisphere of our brain so we should probably try to keep it that way we were born with left and right hemisphere and that’s that we can have equilibrium like having holistic health and so don’t let other people take advantage of your own life by what Derrick judgments are for your mental health. If you have a disability, there are choices like all of the options for holistic. If you don’t feel medication is right for you don’t ever feel bullied around or like those doctors did because I don’t even think that helped anyone. It doesn’t help anyone to get a lobotomy. It doesn’t help anyone to be bullied and it doesn’t help anyone to be forced to take a medication if it’s not making me feel good because sometimes you have to have a holistic approach. What is the definition of that word you’re putting a foreign substance in your body it can create mayhem bring your mentality your intellectual capability your intelligence is the definition of mental through a period of what you’re taking medication having periods of or repeated cycles or intermittent usually people take medication regularly, but I’m 35 years in my life without it so I’m kind of living on the boundary of it where I go to the pharmacy where they dispense drugs at a drugstore to pick up a medication during a phase of my life or I was allowing myself to take medication for less than 10 years and I’ve been thinking I preferred when I had three decades of not medicating and my doctors said well you don’t have to take medication my psychiatrist said if you don’t want to because you are doing good without it so but if you could still keep taking psychiatric counseling then that would be good and I do agree with her and him because that’s what both of my doctors side so not every doctors have the same opinion and some people are more Police purge some doctors are not there purely prescribing medication depending on your personality type I mean some people don’t understand that they can do a lot of things different than just using pharmacology which is the science of drugs so you don’t want to put something in your body if it’s going to have the same effect as a chemical like a pesticide Sometimes if your symptoms process or you’re going a lot of stress, you should be able to find ways to have helpfulness housing to read books on Self sometimes spiritual philosophy to have a good set of values like to win to be positive minded so sometimes medication isn’t the only thing there’s Native Americans to talk about earth medicine sunshine is good like you can get vitamin D so there’s options there’s like light therapy. There’s alternative healing therapies too. You can get massage therapy and have a holistic routine so just be open-minded when you’re having psychiatry that you don’t always have to take medications all of your life that there might be times in your life or you didn’t need it and you could still go without it so that’s up to you and if your parents try to give you an ultimatum because they didn’t understand the science of the way that the pill is needed and the pharmacy and you’re not there to see what they actually put in that medication for ingredients, but there are a lot of side effects from it. You have to be the one ultimately at the end of the day that takes it and choose to live your life well and it’s funny because there were times and I wasn’t taking medication ,  my whole life I only have gone the past 10 years with taking medication for four months of the past 10 years well prescribed to it cause there were times. I just didn’t feel like I needed it. My mom was like oh you’re doing really good. It must be that medication when I got out of the hospital and I was being asked if I was taking it every day and I’m like no I’m not gonna be able to answer that question honestly because my parents had different choices in their life than I did. They were cigarette smokers while they were trying to get me to take medication for psychiatric meds and I wanted to do things so I had to white lie, which I don’t normally do you should always be honest with your parents and your doctor and psychiatrist, but I’ve been honest with them lately and it’s like I’ve never done anything to hurt myself or deliberately like cause harm to someone like killing them or I’ve had a slight altercation over a poisonous tree that I just annihilated yesterday tree because it has a poisonous chemical in it that made me have an anxiety to attack on my stepdad and I pushed his arm down, so it’s Father’s Day and I was writing this and thinking well. They said if I don’t take a med they’re gonna be like always out of 500 foot radius and I can visit me. I’m like don’t even go there Mr. cause my stepdad actually did the same kind of thing to me that caused me to go to a hospital, but he didn’t go. He put my mom and went instead and I won’t go into the details of what that is but it was ridiculous like it was sad. My mom ended up getting the short end of the stick in that one judge and so she didn’t have to take medication she choose this too. She went 46 years of her life without it and was a wonderful mother. She even got like a 4.0 vocational paralegal degree was never violent toward me or my brother and my family since she’s always been physically gifted she was graduated from high school and then was a mother of two children and she had two separate divorces, but she was always a good loving daughter and friend too many people that when she got married to my dad, they had a divorce family because of substance abuse problems when I was 14 years old and I just see my mom’s life because of domestic violence from my dad buying drugs from drug dealers that made him become very mean physiologically violent and even murderous so I had to escape from him and go to sleep with my friends floors, then moved in with my grandparents when I was in high school in the ninth grade then I went to the city in Philadelphia and got married at 17. I met a nice young man who was a Christian and he was open-minded to Hinduism is a white guy with blonde hair and blue eyes and green eyes like to steady Hindu. He was in the temple for a year and I was sitting Buddhism and my brother went to school in the city to become a student at the art Institute and he graduated and started managing nightclubs and I ended up working at one in Chinatown and sold tickets for MTV bands and I was like not taking medication and then when I was 17 and I didn’t take medication when I was 27 and I didn’t even take medication when I was 30 so I went many years of my life without it and then my dad gave me an ultimatum at 34 years old that he pushed my head into a wall tried to hit me with the guitar and so is violence is solution to having a mental disability know what my dad did was the equivalent. I’m trying to take me into the middle of Mexico City with a cleft lip that he gave me and had to rely on the doctors or psychiatrist and bandage it with medication psychiatrically the damage like I don’t have a class, but people will damage their own children sometimes to receive financial compensation for it. My dad was just being violent to me at a time in my life and I couldn’t work because I didn’t have a minivan. It broke down and so he started becoming physically violent. He wanted more rent money at his house to throw my things out so that somebody else has given him an additional extra amount of rent money and so I had to forgive my father for trying to murder me one time hit me in the face with the guitar and I’m like well. You go ahead and stay that 500 miles away or more. I’ll be fine with or without medication at least I’m not gonna pick up a guitar and try to hit someone I love in the face with that that’s happened to me from one of my parents taking medication while they were taking it so nobody ever looked at them and went oh well that person was taking psychiatric medication, but they still used to Guitar to almost murdered someone with it like my musical abilities could’ve been damaged forever so anyways, I’m supposed to praise God for being able to be alive and remind my parents. There are other options. You know we have to take care of our parents and they get older or we don’t have to if they don’t take care of themselves then he’s going to help them. I’ve always been supportive of my parents, but I was always my mantra was “could you please quit smoking ” that’s for a different block just entirely about that like I hate cigarettes and cigarettes smoke. It’s so toxic so if you know any loved ones that are smoking, you might wanna encourage them to quit. That’s what I did with my family and now my mom quit after cancer, but I’m not gonna take medication or go get radiation and chemotherapy. Just because the doctors need to do that. They also have a wooden thing with a snake wrapped around it as their emblem for their so-called “medical profession ” though I do support like doctors like heart, doctors, cardiologist, and knee surgeries and all of the wonderful doctors pediatricians. If I had children, I would bring them to a doctor. They don’t always agree with traditional western medicine and I also don’t agree entirely with psychiatric medication, so I’m going to always be choosing to have the minimum amount of medication and if not medication free someday cause there’s something called spiritual life, which is a different thing than mental health. How’s your spiritual health and people don’t ask you that how’s your mental health and they put too much emphasis on that instead of actually understanding that your mental health is based on how your physiological emotional and spiritual life is if your spiritual life isn’t good and a Satanic shark comes and it comes and bites your raft, and you’re you’re thinking because it’s not your mental health fault it’s the damn satanic influence of the shark . So if a shark comes up and bites your raft and pops it and it says Satan shark or like a rapist is like the same thing or somebody that’s a bully in your life. That’s not your bipolar depression. Those are outside influences affecting your life giving you PTSD and why not there are ways of coping with stress that don’t require a chemical medication that are even more vital to your life being good and that is having communication with loved ones and they’re going to be close minded and not want to come visit loved doesn’t want to take medication for treating bipolar naturally then that’s their loss that is my stepdad’s loss and my mother’s loss if they don’t accept me for being 100% natural who I am if I choose to take medication then maybe it’ll help but I feel like it won’t it’ll just give me side effects. I’ll continue being a spiritual person with blemishes accept it !

And then find ways to equip yourself with spiritual wisdom and ask for help from guide too to heal you and if you used to take medication and it helps you than good if my mom wants to take psychiatric medication and she said it helps her I’m not gonna try to stop her. I will be supportive ever taking that whether my stepdad’s alive or not when he comes and goes I might die before he does, but I’m not gonna put a bunch of chemicals in my body that caused serious side effects so I’m talking with my doctors honestly about these things for being open-minded so don’t let you know any Bridgerton psychiatry extreme way of dealing on things enter your or a loved ones Life don’t let manipulative doctors it just went to medicate instead of looking at other options because some people are holistic doctors and their officers of good options for psychiatrist and doctors, but I also know it spiritually if you’re gonna go to a psychiatrist then you should go to Jesus.

Or go to a good wisdom, teacher !

Buddha if you are Krishna Hindu and Jesus if you’re a Christian and then maybe we can all be peaceful and open-minded and learn from each other and get spiritual medicine and meet each other halfway it’s like if you wanna say 500 miles away you go ahead but I’ll be right here and if some 🎼State worshiper bites my raft I’ll figure out a way to get that. I don’t know maybe I’ll get swallowed by a whale like Jonah and survive.

All right, everybody don’t let your parents be too aggressive and don’t agree if you don’t agree with people just for this sake of agreeing . I don’t compromise. Try not to compromise what you know is best for yourself and try to be lovable and kind even when other people are not but if people try to force the medication that you don’t want there’s never something fair about that that’s not the way to be with your loved ones for example, I said to my dad that if you didn’t quit smoking, I wouldn’t be able to talk to him anymore until he quit smoking. That way he’d have to choose. does he want to keep smoking or does he want a daughter in his life? I would like a father in my life that doesn’t smoke cigarettes anymore and I’ve been patient. Hopefully he’ll quit someday but I’ve always loving. We had compassion and unconditional compassion but if it starts hurting me, then I needed to distance myself from him, but I’m never really threatening to my mom or stepdad so that one day I pushed his arm down on the porch was because I called the police asking my other relative to leave I needed a boundary with, but we had to learn how to have boundaries. That’s what it’s about. You gotta have boundaries but within your spiritual life, you can also open your doors up to people who can have the same spiritual heart or ethics that’s why we go to church sometimes so that we can all be of one heart and one place so whether my mom’s here or 500 miles away I was still love her in my heart whether I have medication or not I’m still the same with or without it. That’s why I didn’t take it for 10 years to do a placebo effect trial and I only took it for four months the two months in the hospital I took it and then two months when I came home from the hospital and then I’d bring it home and then I kind of have it like a sugar pill placebo effect I get it. I bring it home but it’s not making me better or worse. Unless I take it. It makes me worse. I’m the same I am without it. I am that I am.

And if I needed help, I will talk to someone and if I wanted spiritual guidance and I’ll pray and read or do something holistic, so try not to worry too much folks but as far as Father’s Day goes, happy Father’s Day everyone for many futures to come, but remember here true spiritual father is and heaven and you know I’m thankful for my stepdad and I’m thankful for my mom even though we have different choices in our lives we should still be flexible with one another incompatible as long as we are not doing anything to harm ourselves or each other with a medication that I’m taking is internally doing settle invisible damage and it can’t be seen because it’s not physiological violence. It actually does have a bad effect like if you take a medicine and you swallow it and it can cause you to have side effects like facial retardation or make into patients worse. You really need to evaluate medication silently killing me because if they are happy with me taking something that’s not good for me. That’s like an invisible gas like a CO2 a deadly gas you can’t see it silent, but it’s there and it’s still harmful so you have to get the harmful influences out of your life and even psychiatric medication can be harmful just like Bridgerton psychiatrist that were very nice to KG or King George because his mother was psychotic and that episode consider that your medication side effects can beat you up at the end of the day so look at the list of all the good things you can do take a walk in nature, spiritual things you can spiritually Medicaid or self medicate with earth medicine sunshine, like the Native Americans talk about it flower therapy essence or there’s even homeopathic remedies and a room of therapy, massage therapy, acupuncture, acupuncture, yoga, and all kinds of options within eastern and western medicine where they can meet in the middle and have a space to be open for both their being an option for medication or not because there’s always going to be a human without it anyways imagine it was never made and they couldn’t you still need food and you still need yogurt. You still need nourishment you still need water and fresh air and sunshine and sleep so you have to have those basic needs that and we doubt the bad influences in your life. Make sure that you stay sober. Make sure like I do I always stay sober and then the boat will hopefully run its course without or the raft without getting bit by a Satanic shark the shark this has time was the freaking tree Taxus Cuspidata when my stepdad came to visit I got nervous and pushed his arm down and sprained his arm lately because I didn’t want him to be near me on the porch where the tree was located because it had a deadly kind of CO2 that the cardio talks and it has something called taxane they didn’t want my mom to be around in the morning, but she came to visit so I ended up going into a hospital for two months after after being sprained badly by the police then I had to forgive my stuff down and I don’t like being given meetings if you take medication or not because the truth was, I wasn’t really relying on medication at all before they came tree was poisonous and it’s still and I needed it out of my life anyways in the Police sprained mine like 3 to 5 times it’s worse anyways we have to forgive ourselves. Jesus was crucified for goodness sake the most pain ever for both his family and friends what have we learned? Have not learned anything from that experience we don’t need to beat ourselves up . Then to go you and then take medication that’s got side effects that make us feel like we’ve been hit in the stomach with a cat of 9 tails or those being nine side effects of a medication, but I can also make I feel like emotionally in our lives with people that make it feel like we’ve been hit with a cat Ninetails in her stomach after you specialize with them like in our family it even said so, in the Bible, that Jesus sometimes in the book of Gospel of Mark somewhere it was saying that he said that sometimes other family people that are not his own family were more like family to him than his own not his mother Mary he might’ve been talking about like difficult relatives that would follow King HEROD or the Sanhedrin to his strict kind of a way he was a little bit open minded and free spirited and very liberal avante garde …

So regarding lethargic drowsiness or stomach pain side effects from meds so yeah, don’t take a medication too. If it’s just to make other people happy you have to feel good in your life and trust in the Lord that

From my mother’s room, you have chosen me you called me by my name. I’ve been born again and to your family. I’ve been born again to your family and to your family or your blood flows through my vein and I’m no longer a slave. I am a child of God.

I no longer I’m a slave. I am a child so we can forgive. Remember our father and heaven is our truth, father and then we ever earthly father and then we have our spiritual father in heaven and so we have to look after for the little ones too, in our own lives or friendlier, brothers or sisters if they have children will be coming onto your uncle. We need to be good to them, but you can’t do a lot if you’re feeling side effects for medication to be honest with doctors about that and your spiritual life remember there is spiritual life medicine and that can be your going to church on Sunday. You feel your soul with spiritual kind of light. It’s freeing to your soul and it’s good to give God thankfulness and glory and praise when another two and remind each other, the good qualities that we have, don’t think there’s gonna be some magical pill out there that’s gonna sell other problem cause there’s different components of life there’s spiritual there’s physical there’s mental and then there’s emotional and then there’s a holistic too you gotta find a way to balance them all like the infinity symbol it just kind of is perfect and it’s circulate in the middle, but it has like almost like a butterfly effect where it’s very freeing to be surrounded by unconditional supported love!!

Black hole sun third eye in a bottle from a 200 year old Tibetan Lama from Hell or Amber Alert Math , India ….

Oh hell no . What’s that powder 3mg of an impurity that comes from their forehead ? Warehouse blonde young main Kama Sutra warehouse orgy was the kid stolen then bring to The lab in Indus to make a popcorn size kernel sugarcoated impurity ? Or purely concentrated evil extract from the third eye of a nearly 200 year old Tibetan Buddhist Lama gone rogue practicing black magic ? Not a good lama , a bad one …..3 6 or 9 or 12

None …..for me .

Makes me wonder what is that impurity called in the ingredients at Ambermath India , or amber alert how many lil blonde kids boy become stolen by these e il dudes and sent to become orgy in Kama sutra warehouse victims like orgy soiree bad news like the Golden child deviant misconduct in the film foreign dude white Nazi cray bastard . ??? Ya know ?! Crazy …

Yikes , they’re good llamas into that but then there’s some bad apples just like an America you’ve got people practicing black magic witchcraft or wicked stuff. Look at the golden Child movie they’ve got this white man. He’s like from Europe blonde hair blue eyes got a pentagram on the ground and then like you’ve got these Asian crazy people not all Asian people are bad. I’m friends with Asian people. I’m friends with Tibetan people but not crazy. Lamas ( especially not 100-200 year old Kamala circle lamas from hell ) that have sexually promiscuous orgies and take advantage of little kids. I draw the line there.. that’s when I go Rambo on their asses…

Get to know who your neighbors are you know even like blonde hair, blue eyed or red haired whatever I’ve been through it all I was trapped in my dad, Shannon, and raped in the hood of a lawn mirror by a blind haired blue eyed uncle that was taken advantage of advantage of seven years in jail and had all these foreign girlfriends he never once to psychiatric medication or addicted to sexual misconduct and nobody made him have a psychiatric evaluation. He had a felon, but then severe alcohol problems and drug problems. Chain-smoking man put a gun up to his side of mind. That was a white haired a 50 year-old 50-year-old steaming lead partner in crime with he seemed like a white shirt wearing long sleeved but down canvas two front shirt, pockets, plastic pen, pocket protector, chain-smoking cigarettes, and one side of the shirt pocket did some kind of psychological experiment traumatize me as a child I survived, though I went to a hospital in an ambulance when I was three years old, trapped in my dad shed, raped in the hood of my dad’s lawnmower. Matic and God stage three bronchial and stage four death which the hospital an ambulance two men with a gun when they put it to my head partner in crime yeah that’s 1983. OK I survived, but it was because there was a white man that did it sometimes white men and their Cold War interrogation tactics. They put a lightbulb up to my eyes when I was three years old that my mom and dad know and tried to do damage to my pre-friendship to early hemispheres in my brain early childhood development so now I know that it could’ve been because of Nazi Cold War experiments on blind girls and blonde hair, blue eye, girls or boys then they did this weird stuff with this warehouse in India and they get this medication that they give me concentrated powdered extract that I read this book black hole or something about Montauk experiments and I’m like oh are they giving us extracted powder from the third eye of a freaking 200 year-old vampire Tibet and llama that practiced black magic and freaking warehouse in India because Hitler did not really commit ballistic suicide in 1945 and then there was like 1 million Tibetan people that died folks wake up. It wasn’t just the Jewish people who died in a holocaust situation. It also was the Tibetan people millions of people so what do you think has something to do with that? You really believe Hillary committed suicide in 1945 April 30 if he has a lie today would be 145 so if 130 is it possible as long as the lifespan can be that’s only 15 years extra so what kind of gold in that guy he’s making a Alexa and stuff to try to live longer, so I don’t know all I know is that I’m gonna start being real careful and following Jesus Christ because I’m not putting up with that nonsense I suggest you guys find Jesus in your own lives or someone good like Buddha essentially, he didn’t try to teach people to worship the devil. They’re a black man practitioners. You can see that in that movie the golden child it’s funny how our property manager are under Murphy’s Law?  Well I would say that get to know who your neighbors are get to know who you can trust because when you have people making fake obituaries and pretending like they died sending their daughters to their front door and finding out that not only your neighbor has a fake obituary, but Service is his daughter. It’s like is that because he sexually abuses his daughter and why is she coming like pretending she’s a police officer to my front door when I grew up with Christian grandparents and I’m open minded to Buddhism but the good kind I have friends that had yoga Studios in Philadelphia had that have you know, released, albums, and friends in California and stuff but when it comes to black magic I don’t practice any black magic. I will karate chop you like Sandy from SpongeBob in your damn throat if you try practicing black magic, I don’t let people do that around me. I don’t even like taking chemical medication so I don’t even know what the impurity is on the label that they’re trying to say is in the bottle so maybe it’s actually the extract of human adult ritual like this stupid eyes shut bullshit they generate that kind of energy energy is energy so if people are misbehaving and they try to concentrate and make a pure concentrate out of it then what comes out of the powder extract of someone’s third eye if they’re meditating, they found this powder came out of this llama’s head in this book. I read oh no, it’s not fiction. It’s real life. It’s something that makes you wanna hide. Your kids are not having any so that they don’t end up being around psychotic people they’re crazy enough to do stuff like that in a Hitler and murdered 1 million Jewish people so it’s good to be able to have people that you know that you can love and trust and even some people turn evil and you have to be careful like youth leaders or bishops that end up sexually abusing little boys it can happen in all shapes and sizes so I would be careful if I were you, I just get to know who you can trust in Love and make sure that you aren’t having the wool pulled over your eyes.

 Have you ever thought I’m so blessed. I have a dad that loves me. I did sometimes I had an empty cabinet. The only thing that was in my cabinet at our house for food was like one can of freaking spam that’s it I come home from school. There would be one freaking aluminum pan in the cabinet. I don’t know how long it was like for an entire summer maybe like 2 to 3 months every time I opened up that cabinet there’s just one damn can of aluminum spam where the hell is it?

All right, so then my friend had like a puppy so I will go to his house and he’ll be playing the Nintendo and look around his cabinets and stuff like there’s gotta be something I can have for food here and so sometimes I felt bad because I don’t like going other people’s cabinets like usually you should like have food in a sacred kind of way you like either have food or you don’t goodness I’m like a blonde haired girl from America and I had blue eyes and greenish eyes or something and I thought oh OK yeah where’s my dad didn’t come home no groceries the next day come home from school. Look at the cabinets no food same can of spam. I guess I’m not having any food today so I went back over to my friends house. All the big fluffy puppies sat down and thought well I guess I’m gonna hurt if I eat like three or four of his Tostitos maybe when his mom comes home I can ask if I could have some dinner with them so yes, my nice Friends’s mother made me a can of vegetarian spaghetti with no meat, thank God and it was just like she made like noodle sauce with no freaking ground beef. That was great because I hate that ground beef like a frozen dead cow came home from school and my father didn’t know I was hungry right oh God my great Grandad when I was on the back porch of the house in the summertime my grandmother’s father we were in the cornfield in his backyard. We had enough cornfield to feed a small Native American Indian tribe because my Grandad during the prohibition days he had to have his corn whiskey. We might not have had food, but my mom sure had a bottle of corn whiskey being Native American if she needed that that’s for sure you get sick. You got a cough or something to take a little shot of corn whiskey but I didn’t really ever have a problem with alcohol because I don’t like drinking the stuff but some people do I guess it’s not have bad if it’s 100% natural but even in Mesopotamia they had recipes for barley 6000 years Ago and so I have respect for beer companies. I mean there’s plenty of beer on the Earth I mean, Maine is full of breweries and oh how wonderful it must be if you have enough money to actually have a brewery because you have barley brewery then you might have actually bread and something called tea is something we didn’t have our cabinets but we really needed so my dad’s driving a truck and I’m wondering where is he going and why isn’t he coming home and bringing the groceries I waited forever like it seemed like I had to go stay with my friends finally I mean I was reading my church cabinets eat animal cookies one day. I was so hungry that I left the kitchen open to the church basement. I climbed up on the church refrigerator chair to get up on top of the church refrigerator. Yes, folks I climbed in through my church window and when I was about 12 years old, I climbed in backwards and through the church window and on top of the church refrigerator if you didn’t know this about me when I was a child and I climb down and I went to the kitchen I said I have reached the mega of animal cookies. I am now going to have some animal cookies and then I’m going to sneak out of the chapel after I go play the piano in the big congregation and my stomach stops growling so I ate about five animal crackers, but because I didn’t wanna read the whole kitchen even though I could’ve stolen the whole big gigantic bear of animal cookies I thought nope I gotta save some for the children that are coming to church on Sunday. They’ve gotta have their animal cookies but they won’t be missing five of them so I got like a giraffe and another kind of animal and another kind of animal. I think I get a lion hungry as a lion and then I went into the church congregation and I sat down at the piano and he started playing. It’s a piano that my mom used to play and it’s in a church that I really love and no matter how crazy things get no matter how bad people are no matter what corruption my Sunday school teachers have gone through even though nobody and my church ever did anything bad to me. I’m telling you this nobody in my church while they ever did anything bad, it’s only outside of church that things started getting weird and so I have to elaborate as a Christian. It is my duty and my responsibility to tell you the truth so I’m gonna try to tell you the truth, but other people aren’t gonna like me telling you the truth and I’m just gonna tell you the truth. I still have a voice to speak with because my vocals were damaged because some stupid guy I thought it would be OK to actually it was two stupid men. I wish it was two stupid dogs, but no dogs don’t go around raping women and shoving sausages in their throats who are vegetarians I was not I’m not someone who eats pig flesh. I have never really someone that eat pork. I don’t like it honestly so I guess someone thought it would be funny to come in my house and steal $230 of mine after shoving a sausage I think it was in my throat thing in my head and porcelain basin of my sink and then leaving with the money they stole they pulled my hair. I regret to say this stuff because it’s so terrible. It’s almost something thing I shouldn’t even be speaking of it’s unfathomable cruelty and it’s like you’re a girl and you wake up and you’ve got semen in your hair and you’re a celibate girl and you don’t even want to be with those people like I haven’t invited anybody in my house into that much and I have weren’t that guy said stay away for me and the reason I said it is because I meant it I guess sometimes words don’t make a difference. Sometimes you have to act on the way that you feel and that’s when things get really really interesting or really complicated so this doesn’t have anything to do with my father doing anything wrong yeah happy Father’s Day father are you talking about my father in heaven my heavenly father yes, my heavenly father has not done anything wrong to me so I’m still good with God I’m so good Jesus, but I’m not good with these people that follow Lucifer like Satan and his minions and my dad’s doing the best that he can roll with the punches here he doesn’t know what the hell is going on. Should we ask the 49 blinds or are they too messed up on marijuana as usual when they wake in the morning and they step outside and they go where the hell is a rapist today what’s he driving? Is he gonna be driving the Subaru legacy that belongs to Peter? I don’t know what says if it’s a glory day or not maybe we could ask the glorious glory filled morning glory and ask her if Peter borrowed the Subaru or the truck or is it that the sun will come out TAMARA and then she’ll be driving a truck that belongs to whom I guess Gloria at morning glory don’t drive trucks but maybe Peter does when he’s on his way to go with Clifton to go trade in a Subaru legacy because I told everybody that they both been driving it so it kind of it’s funny when you have to tell people you’ve been raped and at first it was by a squirrel pie, eating man that had come in your house October 1, 2021, and you tell the police about it and then you get raped less than a year later in September 25 on your cousin’s wedding night and you don’t tell anybody about it cause you didn’t wanna bring any uncomfortable awareness to that because you understand the sacredness of marriage and the sanctity of it so of course five months later I had to say something about it but first they only said something to my friend, my sister and my mom I didn’t even tell the police cause what good is that gonna do maybe they’ll come over while they’re blasting NWA and their loudspeaker or I will. I don’t think they can do anything about it. You ask Sky where he was and he says oh no, I wasn’t there and then he has like an alibi and doppelgänger or first they ask anymore of these days they sent an interloping Asian officer to get your version of the story then they give that back to the Guy whose have paying their salary or giving them a bonus check in addition to it to find out what you told them and then they will build their story around it. OK so she said that he came in at this time and this happened and then what they’ll do is they’ll build his alibi around that and his false witness there is such a thing that the Bible called shout not their false witness so I gotta go cause I’ve got to finish writing an email text my aunt back. We were trying to unclog my drain and sink the other day after we went to go shopping for some nice flowers how lovely that was you go to the point where I was like no matter what happens. I’m gonna tell the truth and so that means that some people aren’t gonna be comfortable with that just like Jesus when he flipped over the tables of the money changers do you think people were happy about that or comfortable when he did that to them now there is priest through there getting all their money and their full outfit adorned with probably semi precious stones and the sand he didn’t say who is this coming up and he says oh here’s the boy that you ask us questions since he was 12. What’s he doing today he’s like 32 years old now where did he go? I guess he went traveling to places like Nepal or India or Greece or Egypt and he kind of went to different lands and he came back after me maybe from the age of I’m guessing 30 to 33 cause they crucified him when he was about 32/32 but probably like almost 34. That’s why Jude had this 33 gold coins right one for each of the life that Jesus lived and he flipped over their tables and said what are you people doing here exchanging money for these animals I mean, there’s a temple right David belt while David lived in the temple that God belt that was meant for him to come down the father of the Lord Jesus was going to come down to communicate with David who is a humble Sheperd king yes David probably like cheese and stuff too, but Jesus didn’t like the burn offering he came up into the temple is like what are you people doing? He didn’t hesitate he stormed right through. He went through that place. It was like they turned Jerusalem into a BAZAAR he’s like OK what you guys got going on here and then the temple had an altar and then the priest were there. Altar was like you walk up to the top of the Taberna, but it’s unlike the right side they’ve got like an outdoor thing and they’re like basically making a modern McDonald’s MOLECH

grill up there like oh we’ll cook a bowl here and then we’ll get a ram here and we’ll get a lamb here and pretty soon. They’re gonna go into business and it’s gonna be like McDonald’s at the top of the temple in Jerusalem, everybody do you want a chicken nugget burger or do you want a lamb burger or I don’t know it’s called a Lambert’s and ask them if they want a lamb burger or no they better not so you know Jesus says I don’t think that God is going to accept you’re offering your folks. Do you really think you’re exchanging of these coins here is going to make a difference in the lives of the people down below. I mean, I thought that when Moses was buried in a valley near H-E-B RO and he was loved by God, but there is no longer and you need to have these burnt sacrifices. He’s not here. Where is Aaron? I don’t know. The temple is portable down below with the arc of the covenant it used to be an attend where God came face-to-face with them and a 10, but he’s not gonna come here with you people because you are exchanging money here for the sacrificial offerings why are you exchanging coins? What coins of the coins at the Roman governors on it or they used to have things called WANPANWOMPONWAMPAN I don’t know exactly how to spell it. The name of Americans that SHEKELS so Sally had a seashell down at the shore and then they made it into a form of currency and Jerusalem the seashells so like they weren’t exchanging seashells, but they had these Roman coins, and actually they found them that were there people were exchanging coins and Jesus is like what are these like why are you exchanging them? We have food for free down below. God gives you Providence you have the land of the Earth the rain you’re the blessing of the sunshine. You have the food that’s growing. You’ve got naturally everything you need but why are you exchanging temple coins with this other government on the rooftop here do you think God is gonna come down from heaven and want your coins so I guess he flipped over the coins and he said you people exchanging money here are pissing me off because are you gonna offer another alter here? Are people gonna start getting in line? I bet you it was like that Jesus is like they’re turning this place into a McDonald’s even though he didn’t know what that was so pretty soon you know maybe Jesus thought well I just had 4000 people in Galilee I mean 4000 layers of bread in 5000 if Jesus was a business man I wasn’t there and went. Oh yeah, I could sell my soul of the devil here if I wanted to, maybe these people could sacrifice the lamb come take the money with their coins and we could have people down below killing the Rams and the sheep and the auction that are supposed to pull the plow though those things are supposed to make way for the sweet potatoes to go in the terra root that makes the vegetarian sweet potato ya can make actual bread or plant-based protein you’ve got the butter turning the milk and the land of milk and honey down below. People are very exchanging metal coins so yeah, they pretty much could’ve if they slaughtered the things on the altar and Jesus came up with the bread. They would pretty much have a McDonald’s or they could call the MOLECH of Jerusalem for Her God I don’t know, but I don’t think they’re exchanging pigs. I think the Jewish priests were not that ignorant to have pygmy at the top of the temple it was a forbidden unholy food but nowadays it’s like people are so deranged that they would have a diesel bug burger like cast out the demon. It goes into a pig that jumps into the lake and then somebody brings it to Jerusalem to get exchange for money coins at the top of the temple is this like a modern day coin exchange? Can I get my currency exchange here? Are you guys having like burgers and stuff like can I have a lamb burger or how about we have a BEEZLEBUB burger like we could always cook a pig up here on the altar and see if God will come down and bless us. Ask him if he wants a bite of this dead pig and we’ll put some of the bread that I gave to the 4000 I mean, maybe I could go out of 4000 people or 5000 Galilee if one of them wants to come up here and start making bread and we’ll go to business and we’ll have diesel. Bob burgers made out of the flesh of pigs you priest are so interested in having these coins over here from what is that room or Italy? What are they gonna start having Italian sausage burgers for sale on the rooftop the temples in Jerusalem oh please excuse me flip over your tables. I’m going out to the countryside to find my parents now and I’m gonna go get some free and some cheese or some cheese and bread or CHALLAH bread and some maybe bread pudding or some rice pudding with tapioca people are psycho. I think I’m gonna go find some olive oil and some bread now and some holy water and consecrate myself and go hide in the wilderness until you guys come to try to find me to kill me so sayonara see you later…… 

What the hell is it? What the hell is this can like I thought to myself, this thing is evil. I was like I am not eating this stuff so walk over to my friend’s house.

Have you ever thought oh my God

Go kosher and natural if other people are trying to get you to take a medication because they think you’re crazy that’s not necessarily going to help you I mean, sometimes doing yoga will help you going for a walk having a puppy listening to peaceful music choosing a diet that feels right for you if someone tries to tell you oh well everybody else does this and they think it’s OK to eat that I’m like yeah there’s 8 billion cans of spam that were made in 8 billion people on the planet Earth, but why aren’t people thinking about how aluminum is harmful and who made it when did it originate? Oh yeah like right after they said Hitler committed ballistic suicide in 1945 what were Jewish people forbidden to eat? It’s called pigs swine. He said it’s unclean. It can make you sick and get food poisoning. spam , no sacrilege Why is it that every national holiday which is like the Fourth of July memorial day people eating pig flesh? What about Christmas? What about Easter people eating pig flesh did Jesus eat that stuff the answer is no Jesus was Jewish Jesus wouldn’t eat pigs. What about Buddha Buddha didn’t eat pigs, but he died even contaminated pork when he was giving a teaching sermon sermon because there is a bad person that tried to harm the Buddha and he told his disciples see now that I’m getting sick and I’m going to die. You should take this example not to eat this pork, I mean the Buddha was a good teacher 500 years before Christ came to the Earth and even though there are bad people and Tibet they are bad people in America. They’re bad people that practice black magic in the United States, which is witchcraft covens stay away from those things. I’ve been having to tell people to stay away from me that worship the devil cause I don’t have any use for that stuff in my life so that’s why I’m sharing this information to warn people. They should be aware of the wolves and cheap clothing and don’t just eat something because it’s popular because everybody else eats it. Spam is like taking a silver bullet right into your stomach want food poisoning eat food told the children not to eat and you’re basically doing wrong in the eyes of word and he would punish people who disobeyed him and it’s really sad that you know when you look at hurricane Katrina and that amount of devastation that happened in there, but it’s the most unkosher food in the United States is all that stuff they were eating that was said is not kosher so even your medicine you wanna take great care to make sure that your medicine doesn’t have impurities in it. If you can’t see what is in it maybe if it makes you feel bad you shouldn’t take it, and if you do think that bring you join happiness and you can treat your bipolar depression naturally, but you have to be careful because when people have I misbehaved had misconduct and raped girls are sexually taken advantage of young children like in my situation I was held hostage at gunpoint as a three-year-old and not just once by two times in my childhood because the neighbors that were bad and then I was at the school and a man came climbing over the fence of our elementary school playground with a knife to harm me and the other children and that happened until I was like 23 years old even a man was chasing me with a brown cloak in the Philadelphia. I didn’t happen every day, but there’s been like four times in my life than an ambulance scheme because of people the same person that was bad not because of people the same individual what was the cause of the problem was that guy was smoking weed he became seriously psychotic and then people start doing deranged things that are not having good morals, and like people crucified Jesus like he was a very innocent person that shouldn’t have happened so at any rate get to know who your neighbors are who you can trust and if you can’t, trust, people will be honest about it. It’s always better to be honest safer than sorry don’t sugarcoat the truth all right folks have a blessed day ! Yeah, you’ve got honey glazed ham so you gotta be careful because people are trying to sugarcoat it. It’s like a bullet to your stomach so try to find the good in life, but make sure you’re not being let astray and remember to that not everyone has your best interest in her. That’s what I’ve had to learn like they’re bad people that sadly though I cared about people and wanted people to be good that doesn’t necessarily mean that they were good and so just because I wanted to see the good in them doesn’t mean that good was there so that’s called you know reality checker being delusional. Sometimes you have to use your discernment and be careful of those wolves and sheep clothing in life because people sometimes have different loyalty to some people might look like they’re good Betty Crocker carrying but then judge carefully just like you know you’ve got this bishop wearing their big regal outfit but some of them sexually these little kids I try to find you know the good in life just be careful because sometimes people take advantage of children and some people think oh well you must be privileged because you’re blonde haired blue eyed kid. It’s like no sometimes it’s a curse to be that because people Target you and you have to worry about being kidnapped or raped or taking advantage of by your own people like I was abused by white men and they were a bad llamas too, but yeah it’s good to study wisdom from an ancient traditions from goodness from the Buddhist teachings and from Jesus, but when people start practicing black magic, there’s no good in that if anybody’s doing spells or tantra or sexually inappropriate explicit orgies, if people are watching pornography, horror movies those things are all very degrading and not good for your consciousness keep things simple. Turn your TV off sometimes and just you know get a box of crayons and keep things simple like really try to do what Jesus said that you should be aware of wolves and sheep clothing . Sometimes our parents want us to take medication and they don’t even know it’s in the bottle who made it where it came from etc. so yeah all right everyone , . Sometimes our parents want us to take medication and they don’t even know it’s in the bottle who made it where it came from etc. so yeah all right everyone , , obey Yahweh . Omg

Blessings.

April Joines

enjoy the sunshine ..

 You know you can’t go wrong with following Christ!

So when you’re in a chrysalis, imagine you’re with Christ and you blossom 🌼 them into a butterfly 🦋! Just like children who like to run freely with butterflies so I’m gonna leave on that note that I’m gonna forgive my stepdad and Mom and like a monarch butterfly that traveled 1000 or 2000 miles across the ocean or like all the way from somewhere to where I went to Santa Cruz, California with my friend Jason when I was in the year 2000 and January they migrated where it was warmer and it was beautiful. I get to actually see the orange monarch at the ocean where they were and I went and got 🍦 on the pier. Free. So being like a free spirit, child of guy my mom, she and her brother and sister sing this song. I am a child of God which I’m listening to this Sunday morning with Damascus worship, and so there was a butterfly too when children see those they think there is a butterfly and they try to be free spirit and my mom used to call me a flower child or a free spirited so yes, a butterflies perfect perfect symmetry, like a male or female then they have a child and then the butterflies. They are a cocoon within a chrysalis, which almost sounds like the word Christ …

So this is a video of my stepdad when my mom came to visit one time in Port Royal Virginia and I actually had to be with my mom maybe that was like 2014 maybe when I was 34 or so but we actually saw these butterflies they were there and my stepdad filmed them and this is the video that they took a picture of him and he noticed them and then I took a video of them on my phone so I just wanted to say I wish everyone a happy Father’s Day every day like that God you know the sunshine the Native Americans think their father Earth, mother, Earth, and father Sky like we should care about the Earth like with the Cherokee heritage that they have in the flowers and let it rain and then we can have butterflies. OK if we don’t have the pollinator like the bees to give flowers and there won’t be any orange blossoms on the trees or there won’t be any apple blossoms and oranges and we need those for children to be healthy and thrive so the father I’ve had made this big orange glowing ball in the sun and the sky that looks like a big bright orange sometimes, but it is good for us to have nourishment with our spiritualized and make sure that we can do things naturally, which is why maybe it’s not best to sometimes take chemicals long-term go back to the way things were within the Native Americans if your medication is not 100% natural then go back to the Earth, the sun, the sky, and the way that Native Americans, my Grandad would call it. I’m not taking white man’s medicine. My granddad said some medicines are good from the people in the pharmacies but then there’s medicine medicine flowers have a type of effect on this too if you flower essences are good.

Anyways, it doesn’t I don’t mean to sound racist. I just think that people can take care of themselves with or without the option of their being a chemical substance and like earth itself naturally can give us medicine comes too from the earth. Some of the chemicals are the minerals that they put inside a medication, but there’s nothing more beautiful than being able to get just natural sunshine and drink fresh pure orange juice or something wholesome within the world that grew naturally without artificial chemical agents so that might’ve been what was in the medication that was making me not feel good, but I have to go back to making my fruit smoothie now cause I can’t not have nourishment and then I need to take a proper bath and that is natural that’s another part of having good mental health having good physiological health. There’s the laws of purity in the Bible even if you’re not reading the Bible, you still have to have purity take care of your own physiological life anyhow with respect to the physical world around us so it’s good to have reminders of things that are like perfectly good like just the chrysalis becomes a butterfly and say like let your spiritual life blossom like to become a butterfly in Christ and then remember Jesus loves you, and God does in the universe and let your wings spread shine have fun through life and take flight !

Best Wishes ! O 🙂 remember there’s even friendship too. You have friendship, medicine spirit medicine the animal Kingdom go do something fun with family and friends. You can have fun golfing or playing with the dog. Pretend like you’re a butterfly, you can start slapping your wing. I turned into a big spirit hawk the other day like the large hawk came to the bird feeder. Tried to fly off with it. Anyhow, so just be thankful for your parents and your friends. Try to make the best of life and don’t get knocked out too many times.. We can always just give each other boxes I’ve ever we can always just give each other like ever last boxing gloves for Christmas and our birthday gift so that we can just punch each other in the face.Lol ! Just kidding .. I think my cousin dressed up like sumo wrestlers one time and they were like lighthearted tackling each other, but not really trying to hurt each other so that’s what most important to not hurt each other but learn in a lighthearted way and find ways to live life happily and be flexible. Bless you, best wishes ! Enjoy life … naturally as much as possible!

Peace & Blessimgs ,

April Therese Joines